If one is forever cautious, can one remain a human being?

I got sent that quote by a old friend of mine who lives in Oxford (whom I will not name at his request). I’ve seen it somewhere before but for the life of me I can’t think where and I’m so tired right now, I can’t even be asked to Google for it. I suspect my tiredness is as a result of the recent emotional and physical upheaval. My adrenalin levels are now falling and so feelings of exhaustion, lethargy and somnolence are flooding in, so forgive me if I’m not as lucid as I might otherwise be.

Now what was the message behind the quote? Well in our day-to-day lives we are all cautious in our emotional and professional lives, and if one gets hurt in some way, we all have a tendency to retreat into ourselves as a form of self protection. I know I do that, and I suspect most other people do too. In fact I wrote about that very thing in a previous blog entry. That said doing so isn’t always the best thing to do. Self imposed isolation from the world around you, blocking out others, limiting yourself socially ultimately leads to depression and loneliness. The alternative is to open up or run the risk of becoming an automaton.

I may not be at my best and I’m sure as hell as tired as I’ve ever been in every way, but I choose the latter. I would rather try and fail then not to try at all. I have failed (and from time to time I’m sure I will continue to fail) on various matters, hurting myself and/or others as a result for which I am truly sorry, but I would prefer to look back and say I tried to make things better and not succeeded then to review the past and regret not making the attempt.

As a consequential result my blogging hiatus ends here. People will once again be able to use my thoughts against me, I’m sure of that, but should they do so the person or people doing so will demonstrate their lack of humanity and consideration for a fellow human being, a failing of theirs and not mine. ‘Fortes fortuna adiuvat’ (or is it ‘Audentis fortuna iuvat’ – my memory is not at it’s best and my Latin somewhat lacking) as Virgil would have put it, and perhaps by stepping out of my comfort zone and making an effort to be more open, others around me might respond in kind in a positive way. We shall see.

admin posted at 2009-12-3 Category: Rants